Apologies.

My last post was beyond crazy. I can talk, I can speak of course I can I knew I would. Well that's a lie but ho hey.

I'm in a good mood and I'm silently fan girling over The Midnight Beast. I would scream and start screaming their songs at the top of my lungs but it's 1:20am. I don't think the neighbours or my mum will appreciate it. I love them all so much. I've never met them but I know exactly what I'd do if I did. I'd faint, scream and cry. I can already feel the tears. They are like amazing. I also love Lauren Aquilina. She's from Bristol and she's an amazing singer/songwriter, and if I meet her I can't promise I won't overreact. Omg I love them all it's so unreal. Like a dream come true would be a surprise where The Midnight Beast and Lauren Aquilina are somewhere and I see them. I can so imagine it. Maybe I should make a list. Things that make me happy. 1. The Midnight Beast 2. Lauren Aquilina

I'm kind of worried I'll meet them and my reaction will scare them off but you have no idea. I'm way to obsessed. Not one of those creepy know it all fans that act like stalkers but just you criticise them I will rip your hair out and well if I met them I'd go mental. I'm going to see them next month and I can basically imagine me screaming my head off in the crowd. I've never actually been to a gig or concert, not a proper one. So The Midnight Beast being my first is actually fucking amazing!!! I really have to calm down. God I swear controlling my feelings are hell. Earlier today I was depressed now I'm like fan girling plus slightly physco. Now I'm kind of trying to calm down which is making me feel depressed all over again. I shouldn't try to control them since that's what got me into the talking mess so I should just go with it. Not fight it. 

Keek is amazing, I wish like even more people used it. It's amazing and I love it. I wish you could put on longer videos. Vine is also amazing. How many things am I on? Well. Google+, Facebook, Twitter, MySpace, Tumblr, YouTube, Vine, Kik, Keek, Snapchat, Dare, Ask.fm, stars of the future, blogger, Bored.com, CBBC, Wattpad, Quotev, Oovoo, Soundcloud, BBM, Whatsapp, Tango, Gmail, Yahoo, Apple, Skype etc. I don't even remember half of them, ever since I've started using the internet so that was more when I was like 10 I just signed up for anything. I used to be into virtual world games. Migo land, Ourworld, Moshi Monsters, Club Penguin etc. even if you google my name you see a lot about me. I guess it's dangerous so I kind of need to manage it all better but I don't remember all of the passwords or like information from when I was younger.
     
It is my best friends birthday. She's now 14 just like me. I wrote her a card and got her a box of chocolates. Well mum paid and I just sorted it out. I was supposed to have a shower but at night I'm glued to my iPad. Separating it from me is like taking candy from a baby. I might shower now and make it quick. 

One more thing. Maybe I've mentioned, since I rant on I don't remember, I'm a songwriter. I've actually wrote about 49 songs now. The last two were recent, I had a lot on my mind so letting it out in lyrics is a good way. The more I feel the more songs I write but I need to work out tunes. My songs weren't written for no reason. Thing is I'm too scared to post any because when it's your own songs god knows what people are going to think. My songs aren't typical they're different because there's stereotypical style songs that everyone likes and if I try to bring my own originality into music I'm scared people won't like it, perhaps it would help it I had my guitar. I guess I'll just have to wait and 
see. 

Anyway I have to shower now and really set limits on this thing. I'm not becoming a coach potato.